I have been a slacker

I haven’t much felt like writing lately.  It isn’t that I don’t have reason to.  I just haven’t had the heart for three reasons.

1.       My sweet little 18 month old niece Paige passed away.  My niece was born with a heart defect.  Paige was a miracle that lived 18 months longer than the doctors expected.  We knew right from the start that Paige was a special little spirit.  Paige brought such joy and love into everyone’s life.  Heaven’s gain is our loss.  What a blessing it is to have such an amazing niece.  

2.       I started a new job.  Which is great news but there is the eventually questions of “So, Do you have any children?”  I know that they are trying to be nice and trying to get to know but it still aches to be asked this question.  I want to cry whenever this question comes up but instead I just smile and say no not yet. 

3.       The last reason is because the summer baby season is rough.  I can pretty much tell you that everyone around me is either pregnant or having a baby (at least that’s what it feels like).  I am happy for them but so sad for myself.  I know it seems like a pity party and sometimes it is but those are the facts.

So forgive me for not writing sooner.  Hopefully this little note will jump start me back down a positive path on my infertility journey. 

Infertility Community

I feel so blessed to be the member of such a great community of infertility women bloggers (both inside and outside the LDS community).  I can’t express how the sharing of thoughts and ideas has blessed my life.  I read another blog and instantly I have a friend who understands and is going through the same thing.  I sometimes feel like some of these blogs are written just for me.  Whenever I’m  feel like I’m all alone on this journey I just read all the other blogs and I realize that I’m not really alone.  I just wanted to say “Thank You” to those women who share their stories and emotions on blogs.  You may sometimes think it just for you. You may not know of all the good that comes out of your blog, but your readers do.