I haven’t much felt like writing lately. It isn’t that I don’t have reason to. I just haven’t had the heart for three reasons.
1. My sweet little 18 month old niece Paige passed away. My niece was born with a heart defect. Paige was a miracle that lived 18 months longer than the doctors expected. We knew right from the start that Paige was a special little spirit. Paige brought such joy and love into everyone’s life. Heaven’s gain is our loss. What a blessing it is to have such an amazing niece.
2. I started a new job. Which is great news but there is the eventually questions of “So, Do you have any children?” I know that they are trying to be nice and trying to get to know but it still aches to be asked this question. I want to cry whenever this question comes up but instead I just smile and say no not yet.
3. The last reason is because the summer baby season is rough. I can pretty much tell you that everyone around me is either pregnant or having a baby (at least that’s what it feels like). I am happy for them but so sad for myself. I know it seems like a pity party and sometimes it is but those are the facts.
So forgive me for not writing sooner. Hopefully this little note will jump start me back down a positive path on my infertility journey.